I am not ashamed to say that I had a mini-meltdown yesterday along the lines of, “What am I doing with my life?”

Also not ashamed to say that for some moments every little piece of wisdom flew out the window and my partner had to deal with a cascade of emotions and anxiety.

Then I went to my mat. I sat with my breath, with my jumble of thoughts, and mishmash of feelings. This is what it means to be here, to be having this human experience.

For me, this is what it means to practise my yoga. That in moments of distress I can use the tools and the wisdom and return to center. Some days it is easier, some days it is not. Some days I can use my physical practice to ground in my space, some days I need to focus on my breath. Some days I need to give more attention to my emotions, some days to my thoughts.

Some days, like yesterday and today, faith and surrender are foremost in my practice.

Yā devī sarva bhūteṣu śraddhā rūpeṇa saṃsthitā । namastasyai ॥ namastasyai ॥ namastasyai namo namaḥ ॥

To the divine Goddess who resides in all existence in the form of faith, we bow to her; we bow to her; we bow to her, continually we bow, we bow.

I do not know what the future holds but may 2023 be blessed with grace from the Divine. May I remain centred in that space. It's my birthday!

peace,

Renee Arundhati